Human can just forget happiness and unhappiness so easily. Tragedies happen for a reason for us to grow stronger, and sometimes makes us feel helpless. Just wanting to forget everything for a better life. Life can be cruel to us. So as to help us to get on our feet to live well. Holding to the sadness, and happiness isn't going to help in anyway. Its just harming yourself.


For some reasons, we might not have done anything wrong to get the stares and hate for no reason. Life isn't a bed of roses. Sometimes, we think that we will do what we promise. But, at the second when you made the promise, did you ask yourself if you will keep it. And hold on to that promise till you really fulfilled it. Many of us might not even think, we will just say it. Only to regret after you said it. Never say something when you don't actually mean it. Don't say it for the sake of saying. Its just like a commitment to someone.

A promise is a transaction between two or more persons whereby the first person undertakes in the future to render some service or gift to the others or devotes something valuable now and here to his use.

Commitment means to duty or pledge to something or someone.

Everything above was saved to the draft in the past. I don't really remember why I wrote all those for. But, for now, I find it interesting. I believe I wrote it for a reason, but I don't understand why I didn't post it. Was I afraid of something? Whatever reason it is. That's history.

Jolyn, I understand now. It wasn't quite a lie. I thought I did. I realised only after what I heard. You know I like to contradict myself. But seriously, it wasn't a good place to say it. You know, its not that reliable. And I don't want to think about it anymore. I am happy with what I'm given now. I don't need anything more, that will rip my life apart.
All the best for your paper tomorrow, Mother Tongue. Finish the whole 1162. Get hold of your A1.

Isabel, we should get that thing done soon. And that thing that is freaking difficult to fix. But, I realise once you get the hang of it, you can fix it easily. Cause, my sister rip it open and wants me to fix it again. I manage to finish it in less than an hour. (: It's secret time.

Focused and Patient.

Labels: Life Quotes.

Calling all skeleton,


Apparently, I'm not very fascinated.
More of disappointed with my brain. Its either I have metal health problem, or I'm just crazy. Just some things that isn't going my way. I swear my life is in a huge mess. I don't even know what's wrong with me. I can be walking on the stress and so many things are going through my mind. I think I'm just not living my life to the fullest, and wasting my whole life away. I should start and make some changes to my life.

Well, I don't really know why I'm blogging now. Since I'm not in the right state of my mind. I'm not really confident that I can say it again. Its just like living in a lie. Trying to convince myself the correct things. I shouldn't be thinking this way now. Whatever it is, I think I'll survive.


Had Chemistry/ Biology Practical test just now. It was alright, but at the same time it wasn't that easy. Contradicting isn't it? Reached school at 8.20am, when the practical examination started at 9.50am. I woke up because of someone, someone who messaged me early in the morning when I was asleep, someone who was just playing/using the father's phone. Joke uh, don't take it seriously. After practical, had to be quarantine, for hours at Old Library. Did some stupid things. Tell a story, J will be blogging about it, I think?

I did, and I didn't. I do, and I don't. I was, and I wasn't.

Here is is here again, but it stings like the first time.
Seems it never ends, with a hole in my chest.
I've grown to love your disappearing act.

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Nights In Rodanthe,


Well, haven been blogging much. I wasn't 'allowed' to touch the computer. There is too much to study, and too much for me to worry about. In terms of studies, my family and everything. Been having our Prelims for weeks. Practically everyday, I'm living in fear. Well, I'm really not someone who can study. I might be working harder than anyone else, but I won't do better than them. I might be seen as stupid, for failing all the time. Sometimes, it does not need to be delivered in speech form, I know it, just by reading you. I am not as smart as my sisters. This kind of feeling had been suppressed for very long. Others might have said that they did not study as much, but they can still do better than me. I'm really worried about my results this time. Its prelims, in a month time its O' Levels.

Seriously, I'm not pin-pointing at anyone. Just upset with myself, alright.


This is long overdue, say a big THANK YOU. I will copy and paste,
Thank you for those who made it memorable for me. Thank you,

Nur Haziqah, Lee Kok Kiong, Zee Wan Teng, Muhd Zahin, Jolyn Tey, Wimi Goh, Isabel Tee, Low Wei Ting, Ou Da Hao, Goh Chang Hee, Sarah Huda, Claire Yee, Ang Shu Xin, Tan Shi Qi, Arvinder Kaur, Lim Xing Xia, Madeleine Yeo, Gary Ang, Safwah, Iris Leong, Qian Ling, Muhd Salim, Ian Tan, Bryan.

I guess that’s all. Sorry if I missed out anyone. Thank you for all the presents and food.

And, I'm done.


Nothing to blog, and there's nothing new. (: Off for storybooks, then follow by chemistry/biology experiment notes. Screams, the thought of having to wait in the Old Library for HOURS is killing me. Sleeping early and waking up late tomorrow. Great, finally get to sleep well. Past few days, been sleeping late and waking up early, as early as 3am, just to study.

Had lunch with J just now, and I should really cut down on fast food. We crap a little by answering, 'Orh'. Well, I miss the old times. History. Told her somethings, about something she should not think too much about.

It's a time for a change,

All right that's all for now,

I, I'm not used to using Wordpress. So leave it. And now, Blogger is fixed, so I don't see any problem with Blogger. And, I'm NOT in love with anyone. Should save all this energy on somewhere else. Right?

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