// Wednesday, November 11, 2009
The Hidden Truth,
Jolyn really has the power to read my mind.
 I love you,
Mistakes,
Every mistake made is a lesson learnt,
For every friendship that broke, piece it back slowly.
Keep it deep down, to understand what went wrong.
Time really flies, we were freaking out just by thinking about O level, and before we know it, it's over. Everyone starts planning on where to go, what to do, and so on. There's so much to do, in such a short period of time. Soon, before we know it, we are getting our results. 11 November, the last day of wearing that uniform. The sadness overcomed me.
The feeling of leaving the school was exactly like the day we left our primary school. The promises that we were going to keep in touch, were unkept. The day we step into our new school, we were overwhelmed with fear, confusion and excitement. As the months go down, friendships were forged. Classes stayed as united as possible. Physical Exercise and Class games brought us closer and forged stronger relationships. Class parties, class tee shirts and birthdays celebrations were organised.
We moved on to our Secondary Two life together. We knew that we were going to part at the end of the year, and so time spent together is cherished. Literature play were done together, everyone worked together, hoping to do their best. As the months go by, "streaming" took place, everyone put their heart and soul into their studies. Choosing of classes took place, we chose our Secondary Three class with our heart, and our beliefs. We go on our separate ways.
Secondary Three life was a blast. We were taken out from our comfort zone, and thrown into a cell filled with fear and anxiety. We faced our teachers with the new faith and confidence. As we were comfortable with the environment, we made friends so easily. Cliques were formed unknowingly. Cliques that were formed, just purely hoping they had a stand in the class. Friendships formed were unbreakable. The Secondary Three life was the last time we were going to enjoy ourselves as much, and not burden by all the school work. Physical Exercise was fun, not because of the activities, but because of the time spent together.
Secondary Four was the last year we were going to be in the school. We would at least be able to name all our school mates in the school. Activities conducted by the school was done to bring all the students together. School outings, Marina Barrage was organised, our first ever class outing. The joy, and happiness to forge friendships with all the classmates. Before we know it, the Graduation Day is here. The feeling during the Graduation Day was indescribable. I held back my tears.
Co- Curricular Activities allowed us to make friends with students from other classes. We bonded, we participated in competitions. We enjoyed each other's company, we looked forward to every CCA day. Hours were spent together, games were played, activities were conducted. We have been through all these for four years. We loved each other.
After that thing, I really realise how important my family is to me. The love that they gave to me, cannot be 'subsided' by my friends and all those crap. I really feel its a lesson taught. Like I told Isabel, it really taught me a lot. It might be a painful lesson learnt, but I think its worth it. No matter what your parents do to you, they did it only because they cared. I was really stupid to think that, they are just trying to control my life. Recently, my family's relationship just changed. I think its because my parents treat us like an adult now, they believed and trust us. This love is unbreakable.
To be thinking this way, and not to childish and immature thinking, was because we grew. We grew to be a mature and someone who think for others. When we were younger, all we think of is for ourselves, we want everything our way. All the socialising with others made me realise that, its not about others, its about you. You have to change for the better, and not hoping that they will be tolerant of your behaviour.
For the past four years, I've learnt a lot. I lost friends, trust and for a period of time I lost myself too. I didn't know what I truly want, I lived my life aimless. Something really strucked me, I realised how important friends are to me. Just like my family. People usually realise how important someone or something is only when you lost it. I've never learnt to express myself well. When I was a kid, I was an anti-social person. I could hardly name all the people from my primary school. I just love my life now. I'm free from everything worries and the fear.
It might be difficult to express yourself on something so open, like on a blog. You fear that others will start complaining and talking behind your back. This can't be controlled. This blog belongs to you, but not everyone is with your ideas and your thinking. I once used to say this, "Friends won't go around killing each other, hating each other and staring at each other." It is a gift to have a friend like them. It's true. Think about it.
I've always been saying this, "Don't make a promise you can't keep." I think once you make a promise, you should try your best to fulfil it. Things I have said, I keep it. I remember them, deep down in my heart. I will try to fulfil each and every of them. All I need is, time. I know, it isn't easy to keep all your promises, but please give it a try. Otherwise, don't even make that promise.
J, you have been wondering why I asked you that question right, I was just wondering.
I really won't forget all my friends, who came into my life. You, changed my life.
No matter what, your friends will stand by you all the time. I will be here with you. You are not alone, I am here with you. Cherish your time with everyone in your life. Love them like you never did. Face your problems, face them positively. Everything that happened in your life, don't happen for no reason. Learn to love yourself, before you learn to love others. Talk to your friends, they will be there to share your problems. They will love you, just like how your family love you. Prevent yourself from falling further, by looking at where you are going.
Love yourself. And, your friends. True friends stay by you, no matter what.
22 November, I'll still be waiting. No matter what.
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// Wednesday, November 11, 2009
The Hidden Truth,
Jolyn really has the power to read my mind.
I love you,
Mistakes,
Every mistake made is a lesson learnt,
For every friendship that broke, piece it back slowly.
Keep it deep down, to understand what went wrong.
Time really flies, we were freaking out just by thinking about O level, and before we know it, it's over. Everyone starts planning on where to go, what to do, and so on. There's so much to do, in such a short period of time. Soon, before we know it, we are getting our results. 11 November, the last day of wearing that uniform. The sadness overcomed me.
The feeling of leaving the school was exactly like the day we left our primary school. The promises that we were going to keep in touch, were unkept. The day we step into our new school, we were overwhelmed with fear, confusion and excitement. As the months go down, friendships were forged. Classes stayed as united as possible. Physical Exercise and Class games brought us closer and forged stronger relationships. Class parties, class tee shirts and birthdays celebrations were organised.
We moved on to our Secondary Two life together. We knew that we were going to part at the end of the year, and so time spent together is cherished. Literature play were done together, everyone worked together, hoping to do their best. As the months go by, "streaming" took place, everyone put their heart and soul into their studies. Choosing of classes took place, we chose our Secondary Three class with our heart, and our beliefs. We go on our separate ways.
Secondary Three life was a blast. We were taken out from our comfort zone, and thrown into a cell filled with fear and anxiety. We faced our teachers with the new faith and confidence. As we were comfortable with the environment, we made friends so easily. Cliques were formed unknowingly. Cliques that were formed, just purely hoping they had a stand in the class. Friendships formed were unbreakable. The Secondary Three life was the last time we were going to enjoy ourselves as much, and not burden by all the school work. Physical Exercise was fun, not because of the activities, but because of the time spent together.
Secondary Four was the last year we were going to be in the school. We would at least be able to name all our school mates in the school. Activities conducted by the school was done to bring all the students together. School outings, Marina Barrage was organised, our first ever class outing. The joy, and happiness to forge friendships with all the classmates. Before we know it, the Graduation Day is here. The feeling during the Graduation Day was indescribable. I held back my tears.
Co- Curricular Activities allowed us to make friends with students from other classes. We bonded, we participated in competitions. We enjoyed each other's company, we looked forward to every CCA day. Hours were spent together, games were played, activities were conducted. We have been through all these for four years. We loved each other.
After that thing, I really realise how important my family is to me. The love that they gave to me, cannot be 'subsided' by my friends and all those crap. I really feel its a lesson taught. Like I told Isabel, it really taught me a lot. It might be a painful lesson learnt, but I think its worth it. No matter what your parents do to you, they did it only because they cared. I was really stupid to think that, they are just trying to control my life. Recently, my family's relationship just changed. I think its because my parents treat us like an adult now, they believed and trust us. This love is unbreakable.
To be thinking this way, and not to childish and immature thinking, was because we grew. We grew to be a mature and someone who think for others. When we were younger, all we think of is for ourselves, we want everything our way. All the socialising with others made me realise that, its not about others, its about you. You have to change for the better, and not hoping that they will be tolerant of your behaviour.
For the past four years, I've learnt a lot. I lost friends, trust and for a period of time I lost myself too. I didn't know what I truly want, I lived my life aimless. Something really strucked me, I realised how important friends are to me. Just like my family. People usually realise how important someone or something is only when you lost it. I've never learnt to express myself well. When I was a kid, I was an anti-social person. I could hardly name all the people from my primary school. I just love my life now. I'm free from everything worries and the fear.
It might be difficult to express yourself on something so open, like on a blog. You fear that others will start complaining and talking behind your back. This can't be controlled. This blog belongs to you, but not everyone is with your ideas and your thinking. I once used to say this, "Friends won't go around killing each other, hating each other and staring at each other." It is a gift to have a friend like them. It's true. Think about it.
I've always been saying this, "Don't make a promise you can't keep." I think once you make a promise, you should try your best to fulfil it. Things I have said, I keep it. I remember them, deep down in my heart. I will try to fulfil each and every of them. All I need is, time. I know, it isn't easy to keep all your promises, but please give it a try. Otherwise, don't even make that promise.
J, you have been wondering why I asked you that question right, I was just wondering.
I really won't forget all my friends, who came into my life. You, changed my life.
No matter what, your friends will stand by you all the time. I will be here with you. You are not alone, I am here with you. Cherish your time with everyone in your life. Love them like you never did. Face your problems, face them positively. Everything that happened in your life, don't happen for no reason. Learn to love yourself, before you learn to love others. Talk to your friends, they will be there to share your problems. They will love you, just like how your family love you. Prevent yourself from falling further, by looking at where you are going.
Love yourself. And, your friends. True friends stay by you, no matter what.
22 November, I'll still be waiting. No matter what.
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