// Thursday, August 20, 2009
Twist of fate,
I've been trying very hard to hold back my tears, for days. I wonder when I'm going to really allow it to flow. Can faith really bring happiness. Words going through my mind, can this really work? I'm wondering, fearing, hoping. And, staring. I've been trying to stare as much as I could. Like I told Jolyn/ Isabel, it somehow clears your mind.
But, it didn't work for me. Is faking a smile the best way? I've never felt so helpless.
My back hurts so much as though its going to break. It hurts so much that I want to cry. The pain is just so unbearable. I really hope its in my control. But there are things that are not under my contol.
Do you know how good it can be to be slowing down or stop and just stare.
I haven't been in the best mood for the passed few days. Been having attitude problem.And wasn't in the mood to do anything. Other than sleep, use computer and reading Oral passages. I need to do well for my English Oral Examination. I need to get a least a B4 for English.
Oh yes. I was so happy yesterday. Because a miracle happened. From a C5 grade, now my result is an A2. And my Mother Tongue Oral is a distinction. So happy. Was expecting a B4. A miracle. I apologise if I was insensitive to the feelings of others yesterday.
I apologise for being so cold to others this week. Maybe I'm not in the best mood to talk to anyone. Thus, I'm sorry. Apologies.
Tommorrow is a PizzaHut day! Time for rebuilding patience and faith.Labels: Beauty
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// Thursday, August 20, 2009
Twist of fate,
I've been trying very hard to hold back my tears, for days. I wonder when I'm going to really allow it to flow. Can faith really bring happiness. Words going through my mind, can this really work? I'm wondering, fearing, hoping. And, staring. I've been trying to stare as much as I could. Like I told Jolyn/ Isabel, it somehow clears your mind.
But, it didn't work for me. Is faking a smile the best way? I've never felt so helpless.
My back hurts so much as though its going to break. It hurts so much that I want to cry. The pain is just so unbearable. I really hope its in my control. But there are things that are not under my contol.
Do you know how good it can be to be slowing down or stop and just stare.
I haven't been in the best mood for the passed few days. Been having attitude problem.And wasn't in the mood to do anything. Other than sleep, use computer and reading Oral passages. I need to do well for my English Oral Examination. I need to get a least a B4 for English.
Oh yes. I was so happy yesterday. Because a miracle happened. From a C5 grade, now my result is an A2. And my Mother Tongue Oral is a distinction. So happy. Was expecting a B4. A miracle. I apologise if I was insensitive to the feelings of others yesterday.
I apologise for being so cold to others this week. Maybe I'm not in the best mood to talk to anyone. Thus, I'm sorry. Apologies.
Tommorrow is a PizzaHut day! Time for rebuilding patience and faith.Labels: Beauty
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