Hey.

I can't be bother to update, its becuase no one is reading all this. So no point writing a chunk of words, hoping someone will understand be reading this, and understands me. Oh well, I'm getting the mood swing thing again. I used to write everything here, thinking or hoping that it will make me feel better. But now, I realised, it doesn't. It just makes you feel worse. Might sound idiotic now, for writing rubbish here, the hideous past. It just feels better if its gone. Then all the misunderstanding, unhappiness, hatred, and all the 'fuck' I wrote, will be forgotten, I guess. All the kiddy acts, and the process of losing will never be there. I've always wondered, if I'm not here, will everyone be happier. I guess so. Yes, this shouldn't be said.

Enough of that. Nothing is wrong with my back. Had the X-ray check-up. It came out normal, as expected. Its just the freaking muscle. I'm instructed to swim every week, but I'm still not doing so. And yes, the pain is still there. Affecting a little of my life, a little. So its nothing big and scary.

No big deal.

I'm wodering if I should continue. Nevemind, I will leave things here.

Before I leave,

Hey.

I can't be bother to update, its becuase no one is reading all this. So no point writing a chunk of words, hoping someone will understand be reading this, and understands me. Oh well, I'm getting the mood swing thing again. I used to write everything here, thinking or hoping that it will make me feel better. But now, I realised, it doesn't. It just makes you feel worse. Might sound idiotic now, for writing rubbish here, the hideous past. It just feels better if its gone. Then all the misunderstanding, unhappiness, hatred, and all the 'fuck' I wrote, will be forgotten, I guess. All the kiddy acts, and the process of losing will never be there. I've always wondered, if I'm not here, will everyone be happier. I guess so. Yes, this shouldn't be said.

Enough of that. Nothing is wrong with my back. Had the X-ray check-up. It came out normal, as expected. Its just the freaking muscle. I'm instructed to swim every week, but I'm still not doing so. And yes, the pain is still there. Affecting a little of my life, a little. So its nothing big and scary.

No big deal.

I'm wodering if I should continue. Nevemind, I will leave things here.

Before I leave,