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Wednesday, December 31, 2008
I started this blog on 29/ 09. I was upset with myself, with how much I've changed. I ignored how people felt. And stuffs. But, I had friends with me, and him, back then. They help me walk out of it. Stop being disappointed with myself. They give me the strength to move on. (: My sisters, my mom were always invading my privacy or caring too much of my life. But, now I'm just living with it. Now, I'm strong enough to defend myself now. Went to Vivo City with a bunch of crazy people for the first time. (: Hah. Fell in love with Sembawang Beach. Its a good place for us to relax and cool yourself down. So, dont be surprise if you see me there when I'm upset. (: When I first saw all my classmates. I thought they were unfriendly. But, that wasnt true. After mixing with them.. I found a bunch of bananas. Heh. The girls who make me think positively in life. (:
2008 is going to end in like a few hours time. Our holiday is going end soon.And, I can see my friends in like another 24 hours plus. WHOOPIE! Countdown. ANGSHUXIN Hey, girl. Thank you for being there for me when I need you. (: Thank god, I have a friends like you. SCREAMS! Imagine my life without you. Hah. Lala, you better share all your secrets with me! And, you lazybum. You better finish cutting all the paper. Hah. Alright, I'll help you when I'm free. (: Hey, by the way.. I'm still a little angry! ): JOLYNTEY Hey, PIG! I'll still call you a pig alright. Yes, I have to be back to myself. I dont want to be looked down! So, now, I'm back to being a supergirl. Heh. And, when did you even grumble and tell me a secret! Hey, so evil. You better tell me all your secrets. If not, I'll kill you. :P LIMXINGXIA (: Heh. Thanks for talking to me that night. But, I think I dont have to talk to him already. Because, like what he say.. He already given up. So, dont bother. (: And, I dont want to mention about it anymore. And, yes, supergirl is back. Thank you. MUHDSALIM You might be unhappy with what I'm going to say. But, I'll still say it. Do you know through you actions you have hurt your true friends. So what if he only comes to you when he wants. It shows that he still cares. Do you know how disappointed he was. Your actions shows that you dont even treat him as a friend. Yes, you might have more friends right now. But, one day you will understand, that.. Having a few trusted or true friends is better than having a group of friends. Have you ever wondered how much you have changed. You play pranks on others and stuff. You might think its fun. But, it hurts others. Fine, I'm not blaming you or something. Alright. I'm just doing all this as friend. Imagine, if someone did that to you, how would you feel. Okay, I think you're very disappointed with me right now. And, I dont think I'm wrong. So, I wont say sorry. You can say I'm dumb, I'm evil or anything. You know, I dont even dare to talk to you. Byes, see you guys soooooooooooooooooooooooon. (: Posted at 10:42 AM
Monday, December 29, 2008
Change back to this link.
No fear. I'm not scared of comments. Even bad ones. I'm strong enough to accept them. So, if you want to comment, go ahead. I dont give a damn about it. By the way, I haven finsh my homework. And, dumb Changhee said he wanna go do homework together. In the end, he's at Thailand. Dumb. I wanna say thank you to my true friends. They were there for me when I need them. (: This is what I need. Okay, I know you're angry. But, DON'T use vulgarities on someone. Walk away - Paula Deanda I'm gonna remember you You're gonna remember me I'm gonna remember you You're gonna remember me You gonna remember me boo I'm gonna remember you too I can't forget all the crazy shhh.. we used to do You was doing too much I wasn't doing enough That's what your friends are saying You got a man anyway I can't explain it neither I ain't never wanna leave ya Hell ya its hard to walk away when I see ya When I see ya I remember the day You put your shoes on and moved on Before I could say I saw you with your new girl just yesterday And I feel that I must confess Even though it kills me to have to say I'll admit that I was impressed Physically just short of perfection Gotta commend you on your selection Though I know I shouldn't be concerned In the back of my mind I can't help but question Does she rub your feet When you've had a long day Scratch your scalp When you take out your braids Does she know that you like too Play PS2 till 6 in the morning Like I do I can't explain this feeling I think about it everyday And even though we've moved on It gets so hard to walk away (I'm gonna remember you You're gonna remember me) Walk Away, Walk Away (I'm gonna remember you You're gonna remember me) I can't forget how we used to be Our life from day to day Hoping maybe you'll come back And though I tell myself not to be afraid To move on but it seems I can't Though a new man has given me attention It ain't the same as your affection Though I know I should be content In the back of my mind I can't help but question Does he kiss me on the forehead Before we play Show up on my doorstep (with a bouquet) Does he call me in the middle of the day Just to say hey baby I love you Like you used to I can't explain this feeling I think about it everyday And even though we've moved on It gets so hard to walk away (I'm gonna remember you You're gonna remember me) Walk Away, Walk Away (I'm gonna remember you You're gonna remember me) I'm Gonna Remember You Your Gonna Remember Me The things we did The way we shared our fantasies Just you and me My friend, my love, my family How did we loose a love that seemed meant to be Sometimes I kiss her and wish that it was you I'm kissing Sometimes I miss him and wish that it was you I'm missing Sometimes I hug her and wish that it was you I was hugging And I realize how much I'm bugging I miss you Walk Away, Walk Away (I'm Gonna Remember You Your Gonna Remember Me) So hard to express this feeling Cause nobody compares to you And you know she'll never love you like I do I can't explain this feeling I think about it everyday And even though we've moved on It gets so hard to walk away (I'm gonna remember you You're gonna remember me) Walk Away, Walk Away Remember You (I'm gonna remember you You're gonna remember me) (I'm gonna remember you You're gonna remember me) Posted at 11:08 AM
Sunday, December 28, 2008
Okay, I'm back. I mean the old me. (:
The super happy one, and strong eh. Hah. Why choose to be controlled by love, oops, no offence to those attached. Although, we are SINGLE, but, we can be happy. "You are lovely and caring. You help others and spread out a lot of sympathy. Your life aim maybe is to serve the people. But your weakness is that you forget about yourself, your own needs. All your time is hold back for your friends and family. You are always there for people in trouble. Ready for any emergency. You make a lot of sacrifices just to be a good human. But every woman has her needs, her longings and a destiny. Don't loose yourself in work or curing other people's souls. You will have your own problems in your life. Another problem is that you don't say your opinion when it's right and important to say it. People trample onto your soul if you are always so kind and lovely and helpful. They will play on you. Though you should try to relax more and enjoy your life, you should not loose the gift that was given to you to help others . Not everyone is created this way... You are uniqe and rare!" Okay, maybe not everything is true, but, part of it is TRUE. (: Yeah, I left this blog not private cause anyway I change the link, so I think no one will know eh. Byes, see you guys soon. I miss you guys so much! Posted at 4:39 PM
Friday, December 26, 2008
Alright, I've changed the link privated the blog.
I only invited SIX of you. Its because I trust you guys. I hope it will not become another disappointment. I've already lose two friends at one go. No, many more I guess. Trust me, If you're in my position, you will feel everyone against you. Even your friends. Yes, they might be helping you. Yes, I might be unreasonable in what I've said. But, it was the truth. Rules eh. Sorry, I have to do this. 1. Keep this link to yourself, dont relink me. 2. Dont let anyone else read the blog. 3. Keep all discussion in this blog, I hope no one talks about it to ANYONE. 4. Yes, if you dont like what I'm blogging, tell me. Then get lost. Can someone tell me how the hell HASYIMA can come in when I already private the blog!? Now, everyone thinks I'm the one who hurt him, and yes, its me. I dont want to talk about it, anymore. I hope you guys are to be trusted. Bye. Posted at 10:15 AM
Thursday, December 25, 2008
Merry Christmas.
Whoo, its christmas. Its snowing. Alright, thats dumb. Well, I'm saying goodbye already. To you. By the way, I dont like your tone. Blar, goodnight. I dont like whats happening now. On christmas. Yes, I did say that. I was forced to say it was over. So what do you expect me to say. Beg you.. When you already.. No. Finding out that it was all true. Thank you for all that! So what if I lied, you lied too. All your promises is all a lie. From the start. Yes, I broke my promise, so you're free to break it as well. Oh, you broke it already. Not love then what happy friendship. (: Thank you for all that. Yes, you had your so-called revenge. I thought I could trust you.. Christmas is what a wonderful day. Santa, you gave me a WONDERFUL gift. Okay, now I've broke the friendship again. Sorry, I dont know what to do now. fuck. Shuxin, I really dont know what to do now. What the hell is happening. I thought it was all based on trust. But.. now, I've given up. Totally. Very disappointed. Yes, I'll move on. Without you. Goodbye. You're happy with this ending, I guess. Thank you. So you can throw that away already. Since its over. Or, maybe you already did. I'll say this again, I DID lie about that exam thing. The way they arrange the classes, its a good way. Move on you stupid girl. 我彻底的放弃了， 你真的让我很失望。 我根本没有选择的余地。 I don't want a lot for Christmas There's just one thing I need I don't care about the presents Underneath the Christmas tree I just want you for my own More than you could ever know Make my wish come true All I want for Christmas is... You I don't want a lot for Christmas There's just one thing I need I don't care about the presents Underneath the Christmas tree I don't need to hang my stocking There upon the fireplace Santa Claus won't make me happy With a toy on Christmas day I just want you for my own More than you could ever know Make my wish come true All I want for Christmas is you You baby I won't ask for much this Christmas I don't even wish for snow I'm just gonna keep on waiting Underneath the mistletoe I won't make a list and send it To the North Pole for Saint Nick I won't even stay awake to Hear those magic reindeers click 'Cause I just want you here tonight Holding on to me so tight What more can I do Baby all I want for Christmas is you Ooh baby All the lights are shining So brightly everywhere And the sound of children's Laughter fills the air And everyone is singing I hear those sleigh bells ringing Santa won't you bring me the one I really need Won't you please bring my baby to me... Oh I don't want a lot for Christmas This is all I'm asking for I just want to see my baby Standing right outside my door Oh I just want you for my own More than you could ever know Make my wish come true Baby all I want for Christmas is... You All I want for Christmas is you... baby (repeat and fade) Posted at 12:01 AM
Wednesday, December 24, 2008
Christmas is tomorrow. :)
Okay, maybe I'm a little dumb. But, I choose to watch Four Christmas online. I want to watch Australia. Maybe online again. :( Cause, no one wants to watch movie with me. Alright. Enough of movies. I was watching movie. And, this girl called me. She told me she had something to tell me. The first thing that struck my mind was.. Sheesh. I hope the thinking will stop. Can I at least find out what's happening? Can you message me if you read this. I think I need to sort things out. Once again. Yes, I kind of hate the park right now. I dont know why. Sheesh. Goodbye. I'll be waiting. But, we're just like parallel lines, we'll never join. Not what I hope for. Yes, I am confident that my love would last till next year. But, I'm not confident that your love for me will last. I probably shouldn't say this But at times I get so scared When I think about the previous Relationship we shared It was awesome but we lost it It's not possible for me not to care And now we're standing in the rain But nothing's ever gonna change Until you hear, my dear The 7 things I hate about you! The 7 things I hate about you, oh you You're vain, your games, you're insecure You love me, you like her You make me laugh, you make me cry I don't know which side to buy Your friends, they're jerks When you act like them, just know it hurts I wanna be with the one I know And the 7th thing I hate the most that you do You make me love you It's awkward and silent As I wait for you to say What I need to hear now Your sincere apology When you mean it, I'll believe it If you text it, I'll delete it Let's be clear Oh, I'm not coming back You're taking 7 steps here The 7 things I hate about you! You're vain, your games, you're insecure You love me, you like her You make me laugh, you make me cry I don't know which side to buy Your friends, they're jerks When you act like them, just know it hurts I wanna be with the one I know And the 7th thing I hate the most that you do You make me love you And compared to all the great things That would take too long to write I probably should mention the 7 that I like The 7 things I like about you! Your hair, your eyes, your old Levi's When we kiss I'm hypnotized You make me laugh, you make me cry But I guess that's both I'll have to buy Your hands in mine When we're intertwined, everything's alright I wanna be with the one I know And the 7th thing I like most that you do You make me love you, you do Posted at 2:23 PM
Tuesday, December 23, 2008
Sorry.
Was away for days, cause my internet server was down for days. And, I happened to be changing my blogskin. So, I privated the blog. No one could enter. So sorry. Don't scold me eh. :( Nevermind. Saturday Yeah, So I went to the Sembawang beach. Alone. Memories. Its nice you know. To be left alone. I was at the beach thinking about everything. For the past few days, I had sleepless nights. Only had about 2-3 hours of sleep. Everyday. Every part of my mind was filled with you. Sheesh. Back to the beach. I saw this toy on the sea. Floating, and drifting away. Just like me, so helpless. Argh! Okay. Happy stuff. Oh yes, the KIDS! They were fearless. They were scared of nothing. Nothing. Their innocent, playfulness and their beautiful smiles. I won't know how to answer you if you were to ask me why I love kids so much. Maybe its because, I didnt have a happy childhood, and wants to be a kid all over again! Yes, and I love the wind now. I fell in love with the wind! (: Oh ya, they thought I'm going to jump into the sea. I wanted to.. to swim in the sea. Heh. Okay, enough of the beach. Sunday The day I almost collapsed. Faint. I felt so weak. Nut, I still had to attend my tuition. :( No choice. And, I dont know why, I choose to walk home. Stupid right! Shush. Whatever, who cares if I even faint. Monday Saw you from afar. Ncc. Went to Arvinder's house to use her computer and get my blogskin done. But, heh, it didnt work, so I gave up. Alright, I went for drama. Blarblar. It was boring by the way. I was starving. No lunch till 4! Alright, they wanted to go Mcdonalds.. Yes, so.. Saw Amirah and CheeSheng. And, tada, something struck me. He's going to be here. Sheesh. and, he really did. Now, I guess I understand why Shiwei choose to run away from problems. I choose to run away from it too. Okay, uhm.. Went to LJS. And then home. I still cant take it alright. Can I beg santa to get you back.. Sheesh. Tuesday Went to watch Twilight. Quite a nice movie. And, I wanna watch Yes man! But, well no one want to watch . So, blar. Okay, Shuxin threw popcorns at us. Hey, dont play with food alright. Okay, someone told me something. About you. Am I suppose to trust it. Is it true. what the hell is happening. Can I ask you about it. Will I have an answer from you. I'm begging you. You've changed. Alot. I guess, I should have seen it coming. Alright. To whom it may concern. I think I was rude to you last night. I'm sorry. I wasnt in my best mood. Seriously. I dont need your comfort. I'm just telling you about it. Getting it off my chest. I really need to. Sometimes, I feel like telling him everything. But, No, I cant be so selfish. Sheesh. I'm sorry. To whom it may concern. Thanks for telling me about it. I'm acting in front of you. You know, I'm not strong. That was the news that broke my world apart. Haix. But, I guess, I will still wait. I will. Because, yes, I love him. To whom it may concern. Can I talk to you? I hope I could. But, well.. I guess, I'm just dreaming about it. Sheesh.. Her. ARGH! My back hurts badly. I cant seem to find my medicine. Fool again - Westlife. Baby, I know the story, I've seen the picture, it's written all over your face Tell me, what's the secret that you've been hiding? And who's gonna take my place? I should have seen it coming, I should have read the signs Anyway, I guess it's all over Chorus: Can't believe that I'm a fool again I thought this love would never end, how was I to know? You never told me Can't believe that I'm a fool again, and I who thought you were my friend, how was I to know? You never told me Baby, you should've called me, when you were lonely, when you needed me to be there Sadly, you never gave me too many chances to show you how much I care Ooh, should have seen it coming, I should have read the signs Anyway, I guess it's all over Chorus About the pain and the tears Ooh, If I could, I would, turn back the time Ooh yeah I should have seen it coming I should have read the signs Anyway, I guess it's all over Chorus to fade Quiz. Tag by Arvinder. 1) Name a friend from A-Z. A- AngShuXin B- Banana. :D C- ClaireYee D- DarrelLim E- EmilyNeo F- Fadhli G- GohChangHee H- HuangTianTian I- IsabelTee J- JolynTeyJieLin K- Kokkiong L- Leonil N- NurHaziqah M- MadeleineYeo Q- Qingning R- ReetaNatasha S- Salim T- TanShiQi W- WimiGoh X- Xingxia Y- Yeesuan Z- Zawoo. 2)Can R&S be together in a BoyGirl relationship? Hah. I dont know. 3)How is L related to you? A friend. 4)Does Y know to Z? Nope. 5)If C betrays you, will you kill him/her? Nope. 6)If K steals your boyfriend/girlfriend,what will you do? Uhm, I dont think he will, huh, Kokkiong. 7)What if B tells you that he/she has a crush on you? uhm. 8)Will you and M get into a fight? We did. But, we're friends again. 9)Who does R have a crush on? Hm, I dont know. 10)If G calls you a bitch,what will you do? Huh. What a question. I wont do anything ah. I'll call him bitch too. (: 11)What`s the relationship between you and E? Friend. 12)Who is I`s best friend? Uh. 13)Who does z likes? Hah, my brother, he likes.. I dont know. 14)What colour does Y likes? Red. 15)Where does G lives? Khatib. 16)Did you a C have a fight before? No. Cat fight? 17)Who is H`s best friend? Dont know. Someone in s1. 18)What can you say about T? She's crazy. 19)What if W tells you that he/she has a crush on you,you will..? Uh. 20)tag 10 people to do this quiz Shall not pass it on to anyone else. Its a burden. (: Posted at 6:44 PM
Friday, December 19, 2008
Tag replies.I dont know what to blog eh. Can I dont blog, cause my mind is empty now. So, bye. Will blog again. SOON. (: Santa, can I choose my present? Posted at 10:37 AM
Wednesday, December 17, 2008
I really hate the fact that I am born in this family. I tried my best to give in to them, for almost everyday, but there is a limit to everything. As well as my patience. I'm not someone you can scold whenever you like, alright? I really hate it. I dont feel that I belong. There's totally nothing we can talk about. This isnt somewhere I cal home. This is just like a hotel to me, to sleep and eat in. I'm jealous of my friends having such a wonderful parents and siblings. I wish I wasnt born in this family. I dont really like to mention my family problems, maybe only to closer friends. So, they will know why. I want a home. A place I will feel love, care and concern. I thought my friends can give me that, but, I was wrong, they wont be able to do that.
Why? Why is he taken away from me? Why is the friendship we share breaking apart? Why am I born in this family? Why did they invade my privacy? Why did you leave so suddenly, just hoping you will be back soon. There is just so many questions in my mind. My head hurts badly. Now, even panadol wont help. Am I doing the right thing to wait. I dont know. You can say I have no faith. I try to keep myself occupied, every minute, every second. Really tired. I guess you are moving on, you seem to be coping well. So, I wish you all the best. May your princess appear in your life, soon. Just hoping you will.. not say goodbye. Will be waiting.
Posted at 12:20 PM
Sunday, December 14, 2008
Been doing the quizzes for days. I really don't know what to blog about. Until yesterday morning, something strike me. This cute little girl, she really make my day. The only things that can make me smile is only when I see kids. Their innocent. Pureness. Their smiles. Their playfulness. Just looking at them, from afar. Everything makes them happy. By just giving a hug, a sweet. They will give you their sweetest smile, that's what I love in kids. They can make you happy. That is also something we adults can't do. We face our problems in another angle. The angle that will only complicate problems. We know that we will regret the choice we have made, but we still move on with that plan. Thats us. Humans. Or is it just me, I dont know.After regretting what you have done, you will try your best to make up for the mistakes. But, while you're doing that, you're actually making things worse. You only know how important that person is, only after you lost them. Regrets. Our fear is to lose our love ones. But, your love ones will still leave you, one day. Thats how god is treating you. Giving you. And, taking them away from you. I guess you can only appreciate the fact that you had a chance to spend time with them before they are taken away. We take things for granted. Thats our personality. Well, thats all. Just a random post. I really dont know what I'm talking about. Santa, can I have him for Christmas, Please, I'm begging you. Posted at 8:28 PM
Thursday, December 11, 2008
Many people will walk in and out of your life,Sheesh! Maybe I should SHUT UP! Yes, I know.
It all started because of me. You know, everything that is happening now, Is ruining the 'friendship' between us. I dont know what to do. I nearly got knocked down by a car just now. Really freak me out. But, I was thinking, How I wish the car really knock me down. I dont even think anyone will give a damn. Even you. Haziqah, I need help. I really feel.. helpless. If time could turn back. I wish. Only in my dream. Posted at 5:13 PM
YMCA flag day was yesterday (:
Didnt want to spend yesterday alone. So.. Super tiring, please. Arvinder, shopping is MUCH better. 8hours! Collection of tins at round 09 40. Stand in the sun, for sauna. Then lunch. (: Went to marsiling. Sang Christmas song at the overhead bridge. Attract Attention. Headed to khatib! At the bus stop, they call people to come down 'buy sticker'. Cheap stickers for sale, haha. DOOR-TO-DOOR! Much more fun (: Lots and lots of dogs! Freak me out. They were barking when I press the door bell. ): Jolyn, now I'm scared of monkeys and dogs. Hah. Went back Woodlands, went to give back tins. Very heavy! Saw Mr Goh, with his gay-looking bag. Went to Yishun Mac. For McFlurry. Eating ice-cream from the "tub" . Tried smiling. But, it was tough. Whatever I wanted to give you is torn. I threw it away. How I wish I can hate you. So forgetting you would be much easier. sheesh. We were both young when I first saw you I closed my eyes and the flashback starts I'm standing there On a balcony in summer air See the lights, see the party, the ball gowns I see you make your way through the crowd And say hello Little did I know That you were Romeo, you were throwing pebbles And my daddy said, "stay away from Juliet" And I was crying on the staircase Begging you, please don't go And I said Romeo, take me somewhere we can be alone I'll be waiting, all there's left to do is run You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess It's a love story Baby, just say yes So, I sneak out to the garden to see you We keep quiet cause we're dead if they knew So close your eyes Escape this town for a little while Oh oh Cause you were Romeo, I was the scarlet letter And my daddy said, "stay away from Juliet" But you were my everything to me I was begging you, please don't go And I said Romeo, take me somewhere we can be alone I'll be waiting, all there's left to do is run You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess It's a love story Baby, just say yes Romeo, save me They try to tell me how I feel This love is difficult, but it's real Don't be afraid, we'll make it out of this mess It's a love story Baby, just say yes Oh oh I got tired of waiting Wondering if you were ever coming around My faith in you is fading When I met you on the outskirts of town And I said Romeo, save me I've been feeling so alone I keep waiting for you, but you never come Is this in my head I don't know what to think He knelt to the ground and pulled out a ring And said Marry me, Juliet, you'll never have to be alone I love you and that's all I really know I talked to your dad Go pick out a white dress It's a love story Baby, just say yes Oh oh oh Oh oh oh oh 'Cause we were both young when I first saw you Posted at 12:24 PM
Monday, December 8, 2008
Happy Hari Raya Haji
Went Terminal 3 today. (: Had Fun. Will update again, soon. Photos below. You dont understand how I feel, at all. Goodbye.       Posted at 6:47 PM
Sunday, December 7, 2008
So much happened, Making me fall further. Had a really bad day today, The fact is i dont know how to face her. Put yourself in my shoes, Trust me, You wont be able to do it. I need some time, Sorry. My family is facing financial problem now. I feel helpless. Nothing that i can do. I really hate whats happening now.
Everything. Feeling helpless most of the time. Found myself today Oh I found myself and ran away Something pulled me back The voice of reason I forgot I had All I know is you're not here to say What you always used to say But it's written in the sky tonight So I won't give up No I won't break down Sooner than it seems life turns around And I will be strong Even if it all goes wrong When I'm standing in the dark I'll still believe Someone's watching over me Seen that ray of light And it's shining on my destiny Shining all the time And I wont be afraid To follow everywhere it's taking me All I know is yesterday is gone And right now I belong To this moment to my dreams So I won't give up No I won't break down Sooner than it seems life turns around And I will be strong Even if it all goes wrong When I'm standing in the dark I'll still believe Someone's watching over me It doesn't matter what people say And it doesn't matter how long it takes Believe in yourself and you'll fly high And it only matters how true you are Be true to yourself and follow your heart So I won't give up No I won't break down Sooner than it seems life turns around And I will be strong Even if it all goes wrong When I'm standing in the dark I'll still believe That I won't give up No I won't break down Sooner than it seems life turns around And I will be strong Even when it all goes wrong When I'm standing in the dark I'll still believe That someone's watching over Someone's watching over Someone's watching over me Someone's watching over me Posted at 3:23 PM
Saturday, December 6, 2008
Forget about the post yesterday.
Was really in a bad mood. I am, still not happy about somethings. Especially, ____. Whatever. My mom when for the funeral today. I didnt want to follow again. So, the thing is, I dont like funerals. For you, if you think its for you. You dont have to say sorry cause, Its your life, you dont have to tell me anything. I mean now that I'm not that important. For you, Thanks girl. You have been entertaining me for days. (: I seriously cant do it. I dont know how I am suppose to face the problems. I've seriously collapsed. Last night. After, one message. That all. Byes. If this is what you want, fine with me. I cried again. After the message. There was nothing to say The day she left Just filled a suitcase full of regrets I held a taxi in the rain Looking for someplace to ease the pain Then like an answered prayer I turned around and found you there You really know where to start Fixing my broken heart You really know what to do Your emotional tools can cure any fool Whose dreams have fallen apart Fixing a broken heart Oh yeah Now I don't understand what I'm going through There must be a plan that lead me to you Because the hurt just disappears In every moment that you are near Yeah Just like an answered prayer You made the loneliness easy to bear You really know where to start Fixing my broken heart You really know what to do Your emotional tools can cure any fool Whose dreams have fallen apart Fixing a broken heart Soon the rain will stop falling baby And I'll forget the past Cause here we are at last You really know where to start Fixing a broken heart You really know what to do Your emotional tools can cure any fool Whose dreams have fallen apart Fixing a broken heart Fixing a broken heart Posted at 3:18 PM
Friday, December 5, 2008
Fucking irritating.
Pissed. Angry. Whatever. In my worse mood thats all. Dont ask me. I will tell you something, I wont be in the mood to talk to anyone. Sometimes I wish I wasnt born in this family. This fucking family. I just hope for privacy. fuck. How do I get you to know/ understand that privacy is all I need! For everything, everyone. Ionly ask for privacy and ____. If you cant give me what I want. Dont expect me to talk to you nicely. Or even treat you well. I will only treat you like a, Stranger. Stranger means no communication at all, unless needed. Someone whom I dont know, at all! I'm in bad shape now. Tears might roll down anytime. But, I'm controlling. Stopping myself from doing so. When will I leave this world. Yes, I've collapsed. Falling into the darkes days of my life. Shucks. Posted at 9:09 PM
Thursday, December 4, 2008
I'm really in a bad mood now. Struggling for the past few days. Facing the worse days of my life. Clique is breaking apart. She is facing lots of problems. Missing ____. Thinking of forgetting about it. Someone died again. Just so much happened. It make me feel so helpless, and cant do anything. The clique is breaking so far apart. I dont know what I can do to save this friendship. Its practically nothing that I can do. Shucks She is facing so much problems. She seem helpless. But, I cant seem to help her in anyway. I just so.. hate myself. For now. Went for camp. I was totally blank when I found out. I even thought of forgetting about it. From the beginning. But, she pulled me back. Am I really doing the right thing? I really need to talk to you. Someone died again. Sheesh. Just so much happen to my family recently. Making me collapse. I dont know what happen to me recently. I'm just so.. frustrated at stuff. I scream at my sister for little stuffs. What a failure! ): I'm just ruining my own life. Sheesh. Tearing apart. Soon.
Posted at 9:03 PM
Wednesday, December 3, 2008
Things that happen recently, Really ruin my mood to blog. So, I dont think I will blog, Until, I feel better. Or something. Turning sadness, into misses. I'm not as strong as I thought. I still cry over it. I thought I could do it, not to cry over it. Sheesh, what a failure. I'm sorry, byes. Someone died, again. Shush. Posted at 9:39 AM
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