// Wednesday, November 26, 2008
Someone who came into you life and makes a mark.
It symbolise that you've grown.
Meeting every single one in your life is due to fate.
There is a reason.
So, why do you want to choose to forget someone.
Yes, something sad might have happened.
But, it happen for a reason.
Its 2am in the morning. And, I'm having leg cramp.
So, I cant sleep ):
Alright shall blog about yesterday.
25November.
Went to ShuXin's house in the morning. Try to help her look for her sister's ez-link card. Hah, In the end, It was in her sister's bag. But, who cares? And, her hair is short. Really short. Bad thing was, when I was out for hours, no lunch for me. Cause, of my teeth, and I'm sick, and tired of porridge. So, I decided to skip lunch. But, It make me real hungry. ): And, she ate her lunch in front of me! So, I was waiting for pig to wake up and call me.
Zahin came. I could see that he wasn't happy that I was there. So, I went off, alone. I couldn't stand sitting there. Well, It was just so.. Painful. Seeing them so close together. It only stabs me further. Showing me how dumb I was. Or was I plain selfish. Did I take you for granted? The answer is no. I take every second with you, as a chance to see you. At least, It makes my day. But now.. I cant.
I don't like comments on my behavior. So what if I've regretted, so what if I've reflected. Will anything change? I guess not. Nothing will ever change. Living in my own world, everyday. Feeling extra at any place, every single second. I feel, I don't belong. Seriously. So what if I have friends, they just seem so faraway from me. Every second, every minute, I'm losing a friend. Day by day, I will be left with nothing. Nothing.
Maybe I have changed. But, I don't know. No one ever tell me. Since that day, I started to keep everything to myself. Hiding all the truths and problems. By doing all this, I think you will move on better. I know, I'm still on the same spot, where you left me. You said that's because I didn't choose to let go. But, no. I have been telling myself the same old thing. I really need to get you off my mind. Seriously. Trying very hard. But, the harder I try, the more I break down. Sorry.
Xingxia, told me the ____ will only tie us down. And, I somewhat think its true. Cause, every single time I see the ____ hanging around my neck. It just worsen the pain. I don't know. I don't know why I am doing this, when I know its pointless already.
I try my best to smile. I try my best to act strong. Its just so difficult. Shuxin told me to trust it, trust that its going to last. But, how am I suppose to do that. One year. And, its not going to be easy. I do that by lying to myself. Is that the only way out?
I know, we are just drifting apart. So far apart, and I accept the fact. Even ____ and ____ are closer to you. Like what Haziqah say, you wont be able to forget someone that easily, especially when he or she meant alot to you. Its not easy and impossible.
Maybe, humans need time alone to think, breathe and cry. But, let me ask you, who don't hope for friends and ___ to lean on? Just tell me. No one has the ability to live alone, and face problems alone, without friends and family. No one. I don't have a family to lean on. Cause, my family is totally different from any one's. No privacy, and space. In my family, care and concern doesn't exist. Everyday, we live in our own world. With little communications, other than quarrels. Do you think, that's what I want? But, do I have a choice. I'm born in this family, and I have to live with it.
Well, I can only say my secondary 3 life is full of ups and downs. But, of course, I know, its important in life. This year is really fun, I get to know lots and lots of new friends. Knowing all this wonderful friends, is really interesting. (:
The Bananas.
Thank you for being there for me when I need you guys. Thank you. I hope our friendship will last. Seriously. Although, we have faced problems in the middle of the year, but, now that it is solved, I believe, we'll be really good friends right?
Haziqah.
Thank you. Knowing you for 3 years was really filled with fun, joy, and laughter. Although, you are irritating at times, but, that makes you special eh? Darling? Eww. Okay. Uhm, whatever that happened recently, I hope we will be able to get over it. And move on. Thank you for all the encouragement and advices, it helps. Serious. 3years is alot. So I don't think because of the new friends we made, will affect this friendship. Thank you.
Xingxia.
You are the one who gives me strength to move on. You were the one who ask me to stop crying, and face the problems. You were the one who called me a meanie. You were the one who make me smile, even for a second. You were the one who roll on the field with me, like crazy girls. Thank you.
Yeesuan.
Thanks girl. You wake me up by scolding me. You try your best to hold on to the banana's friendship when it was about to tear apart. You never fail to make me laugh with your retard-ness. You make me strong. You make me face my problems. Without hurting others. And, not blaming others. Thank you.
Jolyn.
Thank you for being there for me when I need you. Although, you don't know how to comfort others, talking to you, somehow makes me feel better. You make me know that there is monkeys in Yishun Park. And after walking for long hours, I will get cramps. Hah, you always make me laugh, no matter what. Thank you.
Shiqi.
Thank you. You came into my life, only recently. But, your perseverance really shock me. Seriously, I don't know how you do it. Thank you for going with me to the beach to scream, at least, it somehow makes me feel better. I will try shocking pink braces one day, hah. You were there for me when I need someone to talk to. You hope I can stand strong. Thank you.
Shuxin.
Girl, I don't know how long we have known each other. I think 6 years? Not sure eh. You always know how I feel without me telling you. You know what my actions always means. Like today. Walking away. Well, its good that you have Zahin, at least when I'm not around, there is Zahin. I've seen you cry, many times. And, its all for the same reason. But, every single time, it will be solved. I don't understand, why yours can be solved, and mine cant? Anyway, thanks, for being there when I need you.
Isabelle.
At the starting of the year, I was very close to you. You gave me the strength to believe in relationship. You make me laugh with all your disgusting jokes. Thank you. And, you owe me Dars. Heh. Girl, stand strong eh. I believe you are a strong girl (:
Nazry.
Thank you. You brought laughter into my life. Its fun to be with you and Shuxin. I miss the Art House Performance. Cause, that was the time we had fun together. Well, lets watch Twilight together, but that's in December 18. Have fun for your Vietnam trip.
Changhee.
Thank you. Well, I had fun during the chalet. Just felt a little left out. Thanks for the vodka. Not strong enough, heh. You were there with me when I want to go to the beach. Thank you for eating my pocky. Well, had lots of fun with you this year. (:
Kokkiong.
Thank you. You were the one who help me get out of the past and move on to the present. And, now, its the second round. Helping me? Stop emo-ing eh. Smile more. Don't treat me as a maid, heh. Go out with you soon (:
Madeleine.
Had fun at the chalet with you. Oh my god. I miss the curry maggi. Heh, super nice, cause I cook it. Well, upset you in the middle of the year. I'm sorry. Thank you, I want to plan another outing! Leonil invited?
Safwah.
I forgot how I got to know you. But, I was able to know such a cute friend was fun. You owe me stars. Hah. I think I didn't teach you how to fold it yet, sorry. Next year eh? At least you make me laugh (:
Isabel.
Thanks girl. Although most of the time, you were the one who told me your problems. But, you helped me with mine too (: And, it was really fun at the Amaths class. Kind of waste of time, but.. its fun. Don't believe, ask Shahril. Hah. Out with you soon. Promise you that we gonna go shopping together.
Lina.
You seem to know alot of my secret eh? Why did I even tell you everything. Hah. Never mind. Eh, anyways, where is my letter. Actually, you helped me alot. By making me tell you everything. That helps you know? Thank you.
Shahril.
Shock to see your name here? Heh. Uhm, yeah, you are someone to find when I'm bored. Hah. Anyway, thanks for making me think positively. (: Thank you. I had fun during the Amaths class. (: Mr Jealous. Hah.
Salim.
Thank you for coming into my life. 7months together, not really long. But, I believe our friendship will last (: Do take care of yourself eh. I'll never forget the times we spend together. And, yes, I do get jealous over somethings. But, its okay. I'm sorry for whatever I have done. Only hoping for forgiveness. That's the only thing I ask for. As for the one year later thingy, I will just wait. What would you do if you cant forget a person ? I'll choose not to forget you. Seriously.
I dont care whatever others are going to comment. I guess, I can still take comments that are ___.
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// Wednesday, November 26, 2008
Someone who came into you life and makes a mark.
It symbolise that you've grown.
Meeting every single one in your life is due to fate.
There is a reason.
So, why do you want to choose to forget someone.
Yes, something sad might have happened.
But, it happen for a reason.
Its 2am in the morning. And, I'm having leg cramp.
So, I cant sleep ):
Alright shall blog about yesterday.
25November.
Went to ShuXin's house in the morning. Try to help her look for her sister's ez-link card. Hah, In the end, It was in her sister's bag. But, who cares? And, her hair is short. Really short. Bad thing was, when I was out for hours, no lunch for me. Cause, of my teeth, and I'm sick, and tired of porridge. So, I decided to skip lunch. But, It make me real hungry. ): And, she ate her lunch in front of me! So, I was waiting for pig to wake up and call me.
Zahin came. I could see that he wasn't happy that I was there. So, I went off, alone. I couldn't stand sitting there. Well, It was just so.. Painful. Seeing them so close together. It only stabs me further. Showing me how dumb I was. Or was I plain selfish. Did I take you for granted? The answer is no. I take every second with you, as a chance to see you. At least, It makes my day. But now.. I cant.
I don't like comments on my behavior. So what if I've regretted, so what if I've reflected. Will anything change? I guess not. Nothing will ever change. Living in my own world, everyday. Feeling extra at any place, every single second. I feel, I don't belong. Seriously. So what if I have friends, they just seem so faraway from me. Every second, every minute, I'm losing a friend. Day by day, I will be left with nothing. Nothing.
Maybe I have changed. But, I don't know. No one ever tell me. Since that day, I started to keep everything to myself. Hiding all the truths and problems. By doing all this, I think you will move on better. I know, I'm still on the same spot, where you left me. You said that's because I didn't choose to let go. But, no. I have been telling myself the same old thing. I really need to get you off my mind. Seriously. Trying very hard. But, the harder I try, the more I break down. Sorry.
Xingxia, told me the ____ will only tie us down. And, I somewhat think its true. Cause, every single time I see the ____ hanging around my neck. It just worsen the pain. I don't know. I don't know why I am doing this, when I know its pointless already.
I try my best to smile. I try my best to act strong. Its just so difficult. Shuxin told me to trust it, trust that its going to last. But, how am I suppose to do that. One year. And, its not going to be easy. I do that by lying to myself. Is that the only way out?
I know, we are just drifting apart. So far apart, and I accept the fact. Even ____ and ____ are closer to you. Like what Haziqah say, you wont be able to forget someone that easily, especially when he or she meant alot to you. Its not easy and impossible.
Maybe, humans need time alone to think, breathe and cry. But, let me ask you, who don't hope for friends and ___ to lean on? Just tell me. No one has the ability to live alone, and face problems alone, without friends and family. No one. I don't have a family to lean on. Cause, my family is totally different from any one's. No privacy, and space. In my family, care and concern doesn't exist. Everyday, we live in our own world. With little communications, other than quarrels. Do you think, that's what I want? But, do I have a choice. I'm born in this family, and I have to live with it.
Well, I can only say my secondary 3 life is full of ups and downs. But, of course, I know, its important in life. This year is really fun, I get to know lots and lots of new friends. Knowing all this wonderful friends, is really interesting. (:
The Bananas.
Thank you for being there for me when I need you guys. Thank you. I hope our friendship will last. Seriously. Although, we have faced problems in the middle of the year, but, now that it is solved, I believe, we'll be really good friends right?
Haziqah.
Thank you. Knowing you for 3 years was really filled with fun, joy, and laughter. Although, you are irritating at times, but, that makes you special eh? Darling? Eww. Okay. Uhm, whatever that happened recently, I hope we will be able to get over it. And move on. Thank you for all the encouragement and advices, it helps. Serious. 3years is alot. So I don't think because of the new friends we made, will affect this friendship. Thank you.
Xingxia.
You are the one who gives me strength to move on. You were the one who ask me to stop crying, and face the problems. You were the one who called me a meanie. You were the one who make me smile, even for a second. You were the one who roll on the field with me, like crazy girls. Thank you.
Yeesuan.
Thanks girl. You wake me up by scolding me. You try your best to hold on to the banana's friendship when it was about to tear apart. You never fail to make me laugh with your retard-ness. You make me strong. You make me face my problems. Without hurting others. And, not blaming others. Thank you.
Jolyn.
Thank you for being there for me when I need you. Although, you don't know how to comfort others, talking to you, somehow makes me feel better. You make me know that there is monkeys in Yishun Park. And after walking for long hours, I will get cramps. Hah, you always make me laugh, no matter what. Thank you.
Shiqi.
Thank you. You came into my life, only recently. But, your perseverance really shock me. Seriously, I don't know how you do it. Thank you for going with me to the beach to scream, at least, it somehow makes me feel better. I will try shocking pink braces one day, hah. You were there for me when I need someone to talk to. You hope I can stand strong. Thank you.
Shuxin.
Girl, I don't know how long we have known each other. I think 6 years? Not sure eh. You always know how I feel without me telling you. You know what my actions always means. Like today. Walking away. Well, its good that you have Zahin, at least when I'm not around, there is Zahin. I've seen you cry, many times. And, its all for the same reason. But, every single time, it will be solved. I don't understand, why yours can be solved, and mine cant? Anyway, thanks, for being there when I need you.
Isabelle.
At the starting of the year, I was very close to you. You gave me the strength to believe in relationship. You make me laugh with all your disgusting jokes. Thank you. And, you owe me Dars. Heh. Girl, stand strong eh. I believe you are a strong girl (:
Nazry.
Thank you. You brought laughter into my life. Its fun to be with you and Shuxin. I miss the Art House Performance. Cause, that was the time we had fun together. Well, lets watch Twilight together, but that's in December 18. Have fun for your Vietnam trip.
Changhee.
Thank you. Well, I had fun during the chalet. Just felt a little left out. Thanks for the vodka. Not strong enough, heh. You were there with me when I want to go to the beach. Thank you for eating my pocky. Well, had lots of fun with you this year. (:
Kokkiong.
Thank you. You were the one who help me get out of the past and move on to the present. And, now, its the second round. Helping me? Stop emo-ing eh. Smile more. Don't treat me as a maid, heh. Go out with you soon (:
Madeleine.
Had fun at the chalet with you. Oh my god. I miss the curry maggi. Heh, super nice, cause I cook it. Well, upset you in the middle of the year. I'm sorry. Thank you, I want to plan another outing! Leonil invited?
Safwah.
I forgot how I got to know you. But, I was able to know such a cute friend was fun. You owe me stars. Hah. I think I didn't teach you how to fold it yet, sorry. Next year eh? At least you make me laugh (:
Isabel.
Thanks girl. Although most of the time, you were the one who told me your problems. But, you helped me with mine too (: And, it was really fun at the Amaths class. Kind of waste of time, but.. its fun. Don't believe, ask Shahril. Hah. Out with you soon. Promise you that we gonna go shopping together.
Lina.
You seem to know alot of my secret eh? Why did I even tell you everything. Hah. Never mind. Eh, anyways, where is my letter. Actually, you helped me alot. By making me tell you everything. That helps you know? Thank you.
Shahril.
Shock to see your name here? Heh. Uhm, yeah, you are someone to find when I'm bored. Hah. Anyway, thanks for making me think positively. (: Thank you. I had fun during the Amaths class. (: Mr Jealous. Hah.
Salim.
Thank you for coming into my life. 7months together, not really long. But, I believe our friendship will last (: Do take care of yourself eh. I'll never forget the times we spend together. And, yes, I do get jealous over somethings. But, its okay. I'm sorry for whatever I have done. Only hoping for forgiveness. That's the only thing I ask for. As for the one year later thingy, I will just wait. What would you do if you cant forget a person ? I'll choose not to forget you. Seriously.
I dont care whatever others are going to comment. I guess, I can still take comments that are ___.
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